designed by Miyavi.C
20061231
This is a story of Tatty Teddy, the grey bear with a blue nose. http://www.flatoutblind.org/tatty/index.php?about Another part of the story was written but never released, due to its melancholy nature. The story continues like this.
Having the bear was the world to her. She would bring him everywhere she went in her bag. She loved him so much that every night, she would tug him to bed with her. They were always together and never apart.
However, one day, the Girl had to head to the woods. After much thought, she left the Grey Bear a side. She kissed him good-bye and left home. The Grey Bear was now alone at home. The Grey Bear was now furious. He thought, ‘Why didn’t the Girl take me along with her?’, ‘Why did the Girl leave me aside?’, ‘Doesn’t she love me anymore?’ He blamed her for leaving him alone.
When the Girl returned home, she was exhausted but still picked up and hugged the Grey Bear. Instead of welcoming her home, she scolded the Girl. ‘Why didn’t You take me along with You?’, ‘Why did You leave me aside?’, ‘Don’t You love me anymore?’ Upon hearing this, the Girl burst into tears. She was hurt by the Grey Bear’s words. Despite that, the Girl still tugged him to bed with her.
On another day, the Girl needed to return to the woods. After much thought, she left the Grey Bear a side. She kissed him good-bye and left home. The Grey Bear was now alone at home, once again. The Grey Bear was furious. When the Girl returned home, the Grey Bear scolded her, blaming her for leaving him alone. Upon hearing this, the Girl burst into tears. She was hurt by the Grey Bear’s words, and also very disappointed.
After crying, the Girl left the Grey Bear outside her home. She had abandoned him. The Grey Bear was furious. He banged on the door and demanded to enter. The Girl ignored him. The Grey bear was puzzled. He knocked on the door and requested to enter. The Girl ignored him. The Grey Bear was sad. He stood outside the door and begged to enter. The Girl ignored him.
The Grey Bear climbed to the window and looked inside. He saw the Girl packing a set of soiled and torn clothes. It was a new set she was wearing when she left for the woods. The Grey Bear turned to look at another corner. He saw a familiar spot. It was where the Girl had left him, a side of her bed.After crying, the Girl left the Grey Bear outside her home. She had abandoned him. The Grey Bear was furious. He banged on the door and demanded to enter. The Girl ignored him. The Grey bear was puzzled. He knocked on the door and requested to enter. The Girl ignored him. The Grey Bear was sad. He stood outside the door and begged to enter. The Girl ignored him.The Grey Bear climbed to the window and looked inside. He saw the Girl packing a set of soiled and torn clothes. It was a new set she was wearing when she left for the woods. The Grey Bear turned to look at another corner. He saw a familiar spot. It was where the Girl had left him, a side of her bed.The Grey Bear stood outside the Girl’s home, crying. He now realized why the Girl abandoned him. He now knew how disappointed the Girl was. He now knew why the Girl cried. The Grey ear regretted saying those words to the Girl. He stood at the door, hoping for the Girl to open the door once again. The Grey Bear waited and waited, but she never opened the door.
pondered at 12:00
20061221
Something so Precious,
To be Lost Forever.
I wished I kept my Promises,
But I didn't.
I wished I could give You Eternal Love,
But I couldn't.
I wished I had trusted You,
But I didn't.
I wished You told me more things,
But You didn't.
I wished I understood You more,
But I don't.
I wished You gave me another chance,
But You never did.
I wished We never have to part,
But We did.
Feelings may Fade,
But Memories will Stay.
First Love is always the Sweetest,
Because You are my Sugar.
pondered at 12:00
20061208
What the word 'sorry' really meant to me.
Sorry means not doing it in the first place.
Sorry means admitting the mistake.
Sorry means regretting the mistake.
Sorry means never repeating the mistake.
Sorry means a plea for another chance.
Sorry means never meant to hurt you.
Sorry means never wanting to make you cry.
Sorry means crying with you.
Sorry means you are my everything.
Sorry means I love you still.
For saying it so many times, the word 'sorry' had lost its original meaning. But I will still say it to you,
I'm Sorry.
pondered at 23:17